It doesn't feel like today was a day off. When I woke up, a little before noon, the bus was stopped but the engine was still running. I assumed we were at our hotel, waiting for Jordan to check in and figure out parking. I went into the front lounge to investigate. We were stopped in traffic due to construction; we still had about 80 miles to go. I tried to go back to sleep but I couldn't. I opened up my computer, no internet signal. I checked my cell phone, no reception.
It doesn't feel like today was a day off. I went to sleep with the bus in motion and I woke up still en route. Oh, the monotony of bus life, the ground hog day effect of going to sleep in the parking lot of one club and waking up in the parking lot of another. Each night you pull the grey vinyl curtain of your bunk shut and tuck yourself into bed, falling asleep trying not to imagine all of the horrible acts that have been committed in the name of rock and roll by a 1000 sleazy band dudes on the very mattress underneath your body. Just because the sheets and blankets have been washed doesn't mean the memory of semen, vomit, urine, and god knows what else is gone.
It doesn't feel like today was a day off. Once we actually arrived at the hotel it was almost 2PM. I had an hour's worth of phone interviews followed by at least two hours of computer work to catch up on. I drank a small pot of coffee while doing the interviews. The caffeine hit me hard, not having had any since Los Angeles. Things got manic quickly. I took a walk around 5PM across the highway to the shopping center. Spent an hour walking aimlessly through Future Shop (Canadian version of Best Buy), Chapters (Canadian version of Barnes and Noble) and Wal-Mart (Canadian version of Wal-Mart). All the while feeling paranoid that employees were eyeballing me like I was about to steal something. Suddenly my clothes are that much more dirty, I was in that much more need of a shave and a haircut, my dandruff was that much more uncontrollable. I was hoping to find a Warren Zevon album at the Future Shop (I refuse to buy music from Wal-Mart) but no dice. I came back to the hotel with Listerine, 4 metal forks, 4 metal spoons (I hate using plastic ones) and some anti-biotic ointment for the developing rash on my chest.
It doesn't feel like today was a day off. It's hard to relax when your body is so out of whack, when you have no cycle, no routine, no regular eating times other than "sometime before the show". There were no real food options around the hotel. McDonalds, Taco Time, and some kind of Canadian version of Chili's, Applebee's, Ruby Tuesday, T.G.I Friday, Bennigan's. I ate bus food for dinner, a fake ham and fake cheese sandwich, microwave chili. Drank red wine until my teeth were stained purple and I was calmed down from the caffeine. My curtain is pulled shut and we're on our way again. It doesn't feel like today was a day off.

45 comments:
Tom, I am so amazed at how well you capture those vibes and that lifestyle in these posts. I feel like I'm right there.
Sorry dude. I can only imagine our bland, endless highways exacerbate the nightmare that is roading.
I can't say how thankful I am that you do it though. The show in Saskatoon made my summer.
thank you so much for doing what you do every night. your music has made me feel every emotion possible and helps me get through each and every day. from listening to the demo tapes to new wave and everything in between. your shows are the most exhilarating times of my life, i'm always at the front screaming along to every word. so again, thank you, thank you, thank you. we all appreciate it so much.
i'm going to email you guys a list of great places to eat and record shop in toronto and surrounding areas, so that one city is a little less shitty when times are down like that.
p.s. i can't wait to hear your solo ep. i love every single thing thus far that i've heard and it sounds like you're really enjoying making it, which makes it 100 times better to listen to knowing so much emotion and excitement is going into the project.
lastly, thank you! i can't say it enough
Sounds pretty much shitty man. But if it wasnt for you braving the endless stretch to come play up here, I wouldnt have had a rockin good time at the Garrick in Winnipeg.
Im from a small boxed up town in Manitoba, and your songs keep me open to new things and views on this crazy world.
Thanks Man
Della Shore
I'm amazed at how much you have done in your life, it really is inspiring, and makes me want to go out and do something great with my life.
I love all of you music and I can't wait for your solo EP to come out. I somehow keep missing all of your live shows in Southern Ontario and Detroit(I live in Windsor, across the river), and I'm kicking myself for all that I've missed.
Thanks for all the good times, keep it up!
Shane.
"no dice"
!!!!!
You're so real. You talk about shit that other fake wannabe rock stars sweep under the rug. Sometimes I get the feeling that touring is all that. I guess it loses its appeal after marriage. Or maybe, just maybe, it always sucked, and you'd be the first one to admit that.
I'm sorry you have visions of sweaty dirty punk rockers fornicating in your bed. Where do you get your bus anyways? Is it rented "from slut-band-boys-R-Us?" Just wondering. Keep on keepin on.
It doesn't feel like a day off, because you're always "on" my friend. I wonder, do you always need an alcoholic beverage to calm your nerves? You should try meditation. Just a suggestion. Read a book about it,and find out what's right for you.
The rash sounds like it's stress related. Don't forget to breathe. I know it can be hard because of your lifestyle. Try some breathing exercises, and if that doesn't work, punch a random, onlooker. This helps me.
Just saw you in Vancouver. Stellar performance. The friends we brought to the show were blown away and said you were the most intense band they have ever seen. Not bad for the last show of a long string of love performances. You guys are the greatest band in the world right now.
"a long string of love performances"?!
didn't expect you guys do these kind of things while touring.. ;o
Hi Tom, I've listened since Searching For a Former Clarity came out, that was my first experience of Against Me!. "Even At Our Worst, We're Still Better Then Most" really helped me through some rough times throughout 2007, thank you for helping me feel like I'm not the only one going through stressful times, it's comforting to hear your feelings put to words, in whatever context it's written in. If you can, could you guys please play "Even At Our Worst.." when you play in Seattle on Oct. 24th? It would mean much to me. Sounds like you had a bad day on Wed, hang in there man, I can't even imagine how grueling it is. I appreciate all you give to the crowd and yr music every night, thank you. Thank you for being real.
"Each night you pull the grey vinyl curtain of your bunk shut and tuck yourself into bed, falling asleep trying not to imagine all of the horrible acts that have been committed in the name of rock and roll by a 1000 sleazy band dudes on the very mattress underneath your body."
-Your principles are what make you stand out from the rest of the rock and rollers who waste their lives away indulging in all their caprices. Way to go, Tom! You're my hero! I agree with Nat, your music is so transcendent it makes us feel every emotion possible. Never have I been so inclined to spread the word about my favorite band until I heard your music. You are beyond amazing.
P.S. I checked out your wife's site, I can't wait till she puts up her store!
Hey Tom. I saw you guys perform last night, in Vancouver. It was my first punk show and I'm bruised and exhausted, but it was incredible.
Thank you, man. I hope you get some proper R&R time soon.
(next time you're in Vancity, you should check out The Naam. They have an excellent vegan-friendly menu, and they're open 24 hours.)
You sir, would be a master at descriptive writing.
but you're so lucky that you have a job to go back to that you love!
especially with today's economy. thanks g'dubs, you da man.
sorry for snooping. i don't know you personally, but i wish i did!
hope today is going a little better.
lyndsay
tom, your even an amazing blogger. anyone can tell you are a mindblowing lyricist just by reading your blog.
hope that rash gets better....not fun...
dude, the music is most excellent, but you should write a fuckin novel.
Man, can't wait to get the lyrics sheets of your solo E.P.
I love your writings, it's the soul (Like the Boss told you), the driving force of your songs, as a band, and as a solo artist, as I can only imagine what it's going to be like.
It's great reading your blog, really.
I saw you in Montréal with a friend, great show, even if we could tell you were a little exhausted. I understand why now, after reading your studio notes...
How's that Dostoïevski going?
This is very pained. You don't sound happy at all. You sound like you really need a rest from it all; a lengthy one. Whether or not you agree, I hope that you're doing okay, Tom.
Come back to Vancouver Tom! We love you!
I also have to say... what's with you musicians and being awesome fucking authors? Awesome musicians I can understand, but I always figured writing prose was a bit different than writing lyrics... God knows I can't write a song to save my life, but could narrate my way out of a paper bag any day.
Hope things turn up Tom!
Tom,
I hate to even bring it up, but it must be asked: Why does Against Me! tour so much? I can't think of any other band of your stature that tours as much as you do. I know you want to reach as many fans as possible, and that's a noble cause, but I'd hate for you guys to burn out from all the touring and lose inspiration to create new music. Honestly, I think you guys need to tone your touring down a bit.
You are a really talented writer. I just found the blog, but I will definitely keep reading.
i want that life.
Reading about days like that i dont really envy you. Take better care of yourself and hope you get some better days of soon.
I'll keep reading if you keep writing.
p.s. all the best from Iceland. You know you'd get some nice days off over here.. remember the blue lagoon dude?
There are very few blogs I look forward to reading, and even fewer that remind me what writing is all about. Thank you for yours.
What Warren Zevvon CD were you trying to buy? I dont know anyone else who knows who he is... if u havent bought it already i would recomend his last album "the wind".. it has this really sad but good song called "keep me in your heart for a while"
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you're such a poettttt
ahhhhhh
your blogs take me to a different world i swear to godddddddd
i thought you were vegan though tom? or was it FAKE meat? lol.
im a vegetarian, and all things in florida [fast food] sucks as much as it does in canada.
see ya oct 3 buddy. hope you have a GOOD day off soon
they never do.
"Walmart (Canadian version of Walmart)", ha.
Tom, you are such an inspiration.
I hope you keep writing. It's nice to see this side of you. And I appreciate your realness and honesty.
And don't kill yourself fool! I think all the AgainstMe!/Tom Gabel fans would rather see you healthy, happy and showered (haha), than in such a state where you feel sick all the time. Good luck with recording! That's very exciting. I can't wait to hear it all.
I'm looking forward to seeing you perform at Slim's in SF on October 30th.
Alsoooo, your wife creates such beautiful artwork. I met you and the rest of AgainstMe! at the SF warped tour and noticed she was there as well. Next time, if I get the chance, I'm going to take a picture with both of you since I already got a picture with only you. Aw, my heroes.
Take it easy Tom! please.
Wal-Mart, Canada's version of Wal-Mart. That made my night.
You sound like you're one of the busiest guys doing nothing and everything at the same time.
Whoa.
quit bitchin.
man, when you mentioned fake ham and fake cheese sammiches, I could almost taste them. I ate way too many of those things this summer, in the back seats of cars or on buses with my friend. but they're so fucking good, for having little or no nutritional value!
up tha vegan punxx... ;)
Tom, please, write a book.
Just wanted to thank you for the words and music. I am gutted I am missing the revival tour. I hope there is truth to both the rumor about a live CD from the tour and that you are covering "here comes a regular"
Cannot wait for the solo cd.
I saw the show in winnipeg, and for having a shitty day, you guys did an awsome job. you guys left the show smiling, and so did everyone who watched. You handed me a guitar pick at the end of the show too. Thnx for the good show
You never cease to amaze me. I have respected and enjoyed every song you have ever written and truly look forward to your solo album. Although I cannot sympathize with the painful parts of touring, I could say that I am truly thankful for you doing what you do. Your music is honest and wonderful and gets me through some crappy times.
hey duder. Howzit? Fancy meeting you on the blogosphere!
I saw you guys again last night, and it seriously was everything I needed.
Obviously tour is exhausting, but we are truly grateful for all you do. Your music has made such a huge impact on my life, and without it I don't know where I'd really be.
So thank you.
Dear Tom-
I'm sure its been kind of a whirlwind for you over the last what, 10 years or so? Ever since Reinventing Axl Rose came out i remember meeting more and more new people every day who would talk about Against Me like it was the product of their own minds and bodies. I myself have spent countless hours talking your band up on those drunken nights on the town, at shows, and at school.
When you'd come to town these strangers around me in the crowd would become friends, united by song and realizing that maybe there was something to believe in musically beyond what you hear on the radio, beyond the pre-packaged "rock the vote" politics and utter lack of any honest opinion in the industry. We liked how you took a stance and stuck by your guns, and we stuck there with you. We would've paid any amount to go to any tour Against Me happened to be on. Money wasn't the issue for us, it was the substance that mattered. I remember seeing you play in San Diego when you played two sets in one day right around when Eternal Cowboy came out, the first in-store appearance at Off the Record being hush hush because the evil corporate venue you had no choice but to play at that night (Soma) would have voided your contract. I'd been going to see punk shows for awhile but that was one of those 'formative' shows that really shaped my opinion about how i view and play music today. You guys, though sweaty, unwashed, and poor, had so much more freedom and aesthetic quality than any other traveling musical circus that came through a House of Blues or clear channel sanctioned venue or arena.
But one day it seemed as though you'd had enough. I know this is a major bone of contention between 'former fans' and the band. I've read the song lyrics of course, and there was a lot of finger pointing going on through the internet, with a response via song and back and forth. I never bought into the internet debating, nor the short catch phrases of "against DIY" or any of that. To my naive mind, i understood your music better than that. It wasn't signing to Sire, like most kids claim. Its the 180 degree turn you took and the way you sarcastically addressed those people who had been a part of your life. Although you might not have known it at the time, they were a huge part of your life, just as much as Against Me was to us.
My question is, why the change? Why did you need to re-create your band to be a run of the mill, pre-packaged, radio friendly act? Does it give you peace of mind to write rock-the-vote protest songs now? What happened to that fire and passion that drove Against Me like a hot poker through the guts of America?
Sincerely,
Brendan Ronan
(on behalf of all the naysayers and disenfranchised kids who saw you play before you bought your rickenbacker and now have nothing to do but to listen to old AM! ep's and reminisce about the glory days)
whatevs man, your comment is too long to read. against me rocked it at ACL. tom, do your thing man and more power to you.
YOUR AMAZING
ahahaha!!! brendan kelly!!!!
:D
brendan kelly is one cool dude. im seriously craving some larry arms...
If you don't add me to the guest list on your Boston show this Sunday, I will tell all these people calling you a sell-out that you really wanted to be Jim Morrison back at Gulfview.
Any clue about what Dustin's up to, if you see him tell him to e-mail me, uglatto@hotmail.com, I am trying not to lose track of guys like Dustin. Spiritual anchors.
Congrats for your success, once my mom saw you in Rolling Stone she realized that you guys were actually well known.
Now that you're om the same label, is it possible to get Regina Spektor's number?
Didn't think so.
Life on the road definately does have it's shitty moments in all facets...I drive a truck over-the-road for a living and the scenery definately loses its appeal after you have to eat shit food from the TA or Flying J for months on end
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